Party Girl

Yeah, that’s me. I like to party, have fun, and enjoy my youth while it last’s. But I don’t see why people think they can control what I want to do? Or start to judge me? If that’s how you feel, then I suggest you dip out of my life or choose to deal with it because I’m sure not gonna change my lifestyle to please you. Don’t get me wrong I know the difference between people watching out for me and people talking behind my back saying “she changed, she’s doesnt care about anything but partying” blah blah. Get it through your head I live the way I want to. So stop judging. And you guys swear I party 24/7 of my life. I rarely ever do, and when I do I get criticized.

From there, to here, to over there.

My minds been all over the place lately. Like, just thinking about the past, my present, and future. I wonder why on an average day something always has to be brought up reflecting mainly my past. Wether it’s somebody mentioning it, passing by a place where I made memories, or if it’s someone/something that comes to mind. Maybe it’s because I still need to think through some things and see if they’re actually held in the ‘past’ or ‘present’? Or maybe I just wish certain things were in the present than in my past.. Ohwell my mind enjoys playing tricks on me. I guess I need to focus on the present, and only the present.

No one understands

Lately I don't know where my head's been at but, I've just been getting so frustrated to the point where I let everyones negative comments get to me. & I hate the fact that, I act like I could careless but deep inside it's just the complete opposite and nobody know's it. I guess i'm used to having no one help me out and me helping everyone out but what the hell? I listen to everybody else's personal problems & no one can take the time to see that something's bothering me for once? Whatever, fuck it. I'll just keep doing what i'm doing, leave everything on low key. Even if that means emotions being held in, and more shit to stress over.

Things change.

Sometimes in life, the most unexpecting things are thrown at you. But you have to understand everything happens for a reason. Either way, whatever you get in the end, is based on how you carried yourself in that situation. So, don't sit around wishing for thing's to go back to how they were because, maybe it was meant to happen. Everything is a lesson learned, so i'll take what happened, and learn from it.