2009 < 2010

Two thousand nine is finally coming to an end. And, I can't even lie i'm pretty damn happy it is. Mostdef it wasn't one of the best years for me. But, i somehow pulled through dealing with it. I can honestly say i'm ready to start off fresh, and begin a new year with wiser choices and decisions. Which, brings my New Years resolution to mind.. I want to change my attitude for the better, as in caring for peoples feelings and re-thinking what I say, before I say it. I know people are probably gonna be doubting me, but I'll prove them wrong.. Still waitin till 0'10. So, when the day comes I say let's draaaank and celebrate to a new year! Who's with me? Haaaay (;

MIA

I've been laggin it for awhile now. I'm rarely keeping in touch with anyone anymore, but life's been busy. I need to get back at it..

It's clear to me now.

We were never anything, and we'll never be anything.. And, after all this time i've wasted on you, made me realize I deserved better. And, that I can't keep looking back into my life, trying to analyze and fix things from the past. It's too late.. But, it's not too late to turn around and look forward to the finer things that I have waiting on me. My minds set..

Going away kickback

My sister Alicia's leaving me for two long weeks all alone, over winter break. Partner in crime will be in Washington. Hella far though right!? So, all the girls decided to have once last kickback before she leaves us. It started off hella chill, just fucking around in "the streets of A.C." got some ice cream and we were choppin it up at Due's house with Josh. Then later it was all bad... Bottles were getting popped and we were ready to enjoy our goodtime ;) Man, oh man the things i get myself into.. Well, shit i had fun. I'll miss my sister though! Hope she has a safe trip, and takes care Till' next year, it's gonna be another crackin year to celebrate with my girls and fambeezy. holllllla!

Finals

School's been a drag lately. Been studying as much as i can, making up all homework that i've missed, on top of it Finals is right around the corner. I shouldn't be the one to complain though, because I knew exactly when it was coming. Procastination always gets me. Just trying to get back on track, ang get my priorities straight. Hopefully I score at least B average on all my tests. Till the day comes, I'm going to be one busy girl.

Attached

I don't understand why I still care about you. Even after days, weeks, and months not talking to you. I feel like we left eachother without a goodbye, a hello, without anything.. That is why I didn't know how to deal with what had happened at the time, and I still don't. Because if I did, I wouldn't be so stuck on you. I just wish somebody understood the way I'm feeling. But, truth is you wouldn't get it. Not even myself understands. I guess all i'm trying to say is, i miss you.. and yet, you have no idea..

Patience

If it's one thing that I grew up with, it would be patience. I know there's certain points in your life where you need to just stop waiting around on people, and keep it steady moving. But, I'm the girl who's always left aside and put to delay with whatever situation it is. I don't know if it's something you can call a flaw, but as i see it now, I don't want to be the person who just sticks around and anticipates for nothing that may never happen. I'm slowly learning when my times are right, with either being put on hold or to keep moving forward. Lesson's are being learned..

Basketball Game

Vintage High's basketball game was pretty coo. I didn't get to watch the Freshman team play though, but coach told me they won. whoot whoot!! Then, JR.Varsity, and Varsity won too. Our school is raw! My nigga, Justin was doing hella good on Varsity. Points, after points and he got hurt hella times too, but that didn't stop him. He's a beast. Overall, the basketball game was arright. I was with Tania, Alicia, Ariel, Rickey, Junior, Jerson, and alotta other people. So far, the season's going good. Keep it up guys.

Straight to the point.

I hate how you always come back around, just as soon as i'm getting my shit together. I can't keep having you come back to me. Either stick with me, or let me go. I've lost you once, I think I can do it again. No more games, no more wasting my time, no more "i love you's", And no more cupcaking on the low. Because I believe if you really wanted to be with me, you already would be. So, I just wanna say.. It's time you realize, i won you in your own game. GAMEOVER.

Gabriel Lapid

For as long as we've been bestfriends, never would i want a small arguement to interfere with our friendship. I'm sorry for all the unnecessary pitty drama, that i put you through. But, it goes to show you love me enough to put up with my crap. And, for that i'm one lucky girl to have you. I couldn't ask for a better bestfriend. I know you may not hear this often, as a matter of fact you never hear this.. but i appreciate everything you do for me. It means alot. Even though we sometimes piss eachother off, by the end of the day your still my main interest. i love you alot bestfriend, and i mean it..

Smerkish

I strongly dislike when one person follows another person when they're mad at me. Real talk, you are one person. No need for trying to be another. I never did anything to you, and your going to act hella different outta no where. Just cause i'm in a arguement with your friend, doesn't mean you gotta be an asshole to me too. It's whatever, just stick to your own decisions . Be a leader, not a follower.

Lost

Crazy how once i think everythings going so right, something always comes up. I just don't understand why you get mad over the dumbest reasons. Every arguement we have aren't even worth them. And, yet they always build up to something that i never expect to happen. Ahh, fuck it. I'll try when the time is right, right now is not the time because your just ignoring me..

Hurt

After all this time that i've known you, I have never seen you the way you are now. I don't know what has gotten into you, You're not the same person you used to be. It hurts me to see you as a complete different person. I'm so fed up with everything, I can't take this anymore.. Day after day, all you have in mind is bringing me down. How dare you fucking call me the most disgusting word. It never fails to come out of your mouth about me. If that's your point of view on your own fucking sister, then you must have no idea who i am anymore, and i definetly don't who you've become. Untill then, All i ask is please treat me as if i'm ay least a fucking human being not your doormat...

Cotto V.S. Pacquiao

Boxing match, was intense. Cotto throwing good punches hear and there in the beginning then Pacquiao uses his skill in getting Cotto tired so he can take flight on him with all the energy he still has. So, in the end Pacquiao won. But, the fight was worth watching. I enjoyed seeing it with the fambam and Alicia. Can't wait to watch Mayweather V.S. Pacquiao soon !!

VHS Big Game.

Was on point ! hella crackin. I never knew how much football could entertain me. I hella changed my thoughts on the sport. It was so intense, especially when the score was tied and you have 1:11 secs. left of the game and your freezing your ass off but at the moment you don't even give a damn, nd' all you care about is if we're gon' win! In the end JR. Varsity won ! whoot whoot!! Then Varsity, was down by a touchdown, brought the score back up. But, sadly they lost. 'Sall good thou! There's always next year. Indeed i will always remember my first big game. What a coo, relaxing, chillass time.

"Live above the influence"

Oh stfu, if you don't like it then so b. it. You don't always have to talk about it. It's your opinion and i clearly don't care about it or else i would have stopped by now. Don't you think ? Don't take it personal but please just leave it alone already, i live my life having fun and hate to say this but yeah, apart of it does include being "under the influence" Sorry, if you don't like it. I do respect your opinion and by that i won't do it around you. But don't think just cause you tell me not to, I'm gonna stop. Real talk, Live a little!

Enough is enough.

You know how everyone has their last draw? Yeah, i'm pretty much at my last one. I'm so fucking tired of you always putting me down and expecting me to act like you never did me any wrong. I hate being up front with people acting like we love eachother at school, but once we get home it's always a whole different story. You have no idea how much overly stress you've caused me lately. All i have to say is FUCKYOU and i don't wanna talk to your heartless, selfish ass, untill i get the attitude i deserve from you. And, what get's me the most is that we're suppose to be blood, but you treat me as if i'm dirt. Kills me even more that i have to see you every damn day of my life.

P.S. I'm finally acceppting the fact that you love your girl, more than you love me.. thanks, mean's alot.

Over you.

Sure as hell did take me some time to feel this way. But, i'm glad it's done and over with. You don't cross my mind as much as you used to. I don't let your lame talk get to me anymore. & You are no longer my priority, especially when i was just your option. Yeah, we can be friends but let's get this straight ; friends don't flirt with eachother. So please get off the habbit. Friends and only friends. nothing more, nothing less.

Halloween.

you were one fun ass day. well, from what i remember. haaaah ! goodshit.

Not feelin' it.

Hm, i have no clue why, but lately I just been outta it. Like, I rarely keep in touch with anyone anymore. My daily routines for everyday are just; get ready for school, come home, do my homework n' study, then workout, eat, shower, and sleep. & It's been repeating itself for the longest time. Most reasonable answer to this laggin'ness is school. All the work, and studying is taking over my social life. Needa get my shit straight and be the fun girl I once was dangit.

Moving on.

I don't know where i stand with you, but at the moment i don't care. All i know is, I should have been moved on. Took all this time to finally realize you never cared about me. You're just a sleezy nigga spittin' game to stupid girls like myself. I'm getting over it all slowly. But, for now everything just takes time, time, time.

Seriously.

Your attitude needs a reality check. I always try my best to keep my cool. But i'm sick of it, you think you can say whatever the hell you want and expect me not to get mad. For once, i would like it if you could keep your damn comments to yourself. Always trynna rain on somebody's shine. Just cause you're not having a good day means you gotta ruin mines too. Keep it up, and you're gonna hear coloful vocabulary coming outta this mouth, and it aint gonna be pretty.

Back on my grind.

i noticed tumblr is just a place to show my interest's. but blogspot is where i can speak my mind out. no decorations, just venting on my moods, and days.